Tuesday, August 18, 2015

The Thoughts

I have been through many ups and downs in my life.

Broken hearts, love... Anger, loss... Struggles just to have a life I feel I deserve...

I spent yesterday morning full of resentment. I wasn't exactly angry, per we, but resentful. 

In a way, I acted a bit selfish by putting my needs first. It stemmed from the fact that I didn't want to go to school. I just wanted to lock myself up in my room, bundle up under the blankets, and lay in bed with no one to disturb me - that included my husband, my dad, and even the dog.

I know, due to circumstances, my husband stays home. The way I see it? Hubs can do whatever he wants, go wherever he his able to get to, sleep for as long, or little, as he can or wants. Me? The responsibilities kick in. I have a job where I deal with people I don't want to deal with for eight (VERY LONG) hours. I hate driving. A 15 minute (sometimes 20-25 minutes going home) commute is very long for me. Have I mentioned that I HATE driving? So, just the thought of having to get up to go to work, let alone DRIVE to work, adds to the feelings.

Anyway, to bring everything back to perspective, the resentment carries on. I feel that the burden falls unto me. I feel like I often cannot enjoy the life that I want... I deserve... Now, don't get me wrong. This isn't necessarily directed to anyone.  This is all because of the circumstances of my current life. It all a feeling of no sense of control. I often find it as a punishment where one thing wrong leads to another. I resent the fact that I see people doing things, enjoying things, having things...

I should not feel this way... 

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Music - A Quiz Thing (Part 4)

Opening Credits: When I Was Your Man - Jasmine Thompson

Waking Up: It's Going To Take Some Time - Carpenters

First Day of School: Blank Space - Taylor Swift

Falling in Love: Say Something - Alex & Sierra (The X Factor USA)

Fight Song: When I'm Gone - Eminem

Breaking Up: You - Chris Young

Prom: Cruisin' - Smokey Robinson

College Life: I Only Have Eyes For You - Frank Sinatra & Count Basie

Mental Breakdown: Suspicious Minds - Elvis Presley

Getting Back Together: Feels Like Tonight - Daughtry

Wedding: You'll Lose A Good Thing - Barbara Lynn

Birth of a Child: Home - Michael Bublé

Final Battle: Can't Help Falling In Love - Elvis Presley

Funeral Song: I Run To You - Lady Antebellum

Ending Credit: Hero - Mariah Carey

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Mina's Spring Recital ~ 05.26.15

I am so proud of my niece!!!  Here is her solo performance at her school's Spring Recital!

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Life Can Be Unfair

Recently, I have had feelings of anger... disappointment... anxiety...

There have been times where I feel that everything that happens seem to go wrong.

There have been times where I have experienced one thing where I feel lost, where I cannot connect with anyone.  However, those that have encountered similar situations do not receive the same treatments, feelings.

Friday, May 01, 2015

Shared Page

Hello, Readers,

Please welcome my husband, Rob, to the blog!  Every once in awhile, he'll be posting... Just as I have before, it will be full of thoughts, ideas, stories, etc.... Enjoy! ~MB~