With the recent passing of my (best) friend, I've realized that there were so many things taken for granted with life in general. However, before I look forward to the future, I want to look back at how my life was like since I started this blog. I started writing about everything and anything in my life in January 2006...
Here's a look back on what life was like:
2006 - My one and only blog for the month: March 5, 2006
2007 - Three posts: March 2007
2008 - I stopped blogging consistently :-/
2009 - Did not blog more, only TWO posts in 2009
2010 - Must have been a rough year... mom was in the hospital that year
2011 - It was all about Mya around this time ~ Mya was born and the first time we met Mya!
Sunday, March 25, 2012
I know that I probably do not have the right to post something like this, however, I feel that I have to say my goodbye. So, here goes...
Jamie, we first met when you were a patient at Fortanasce & Associates... an 18-year-old girl who recently had knee surgery, and was preparing to head off to UCLA. For some reason, we shared a special bond through photography, scrapbooking, and the mere stories of the random people we came across at the clinic. Under all that, we became the best of friends. We had our adventures, and somehow, even though the bad days, we still managed to share our thoughts and deepest secrets with each other. For the past six years, your health had been up and down, and you going in and out of the hospital. I feel that somehow I was too blame for not being there when you needed me the most. For that, I am deeply sorry that I dropped the ball. However, for the past six months, I became a bit selfish when I got lost in all the wedding drama. I was angry that you could not be part of my engagement party because of the two people that made your life miserable. I took it personal when you blocked me on AIM... I took you off every means of communication that I had with you. Therefore, for whatever reason, I felt that I lost my best friend. However, there was not a day that I did not think about you.... When I saw an old co-worker, Ashley, comment on Tony's status post of you passing, I was in complete shock. Today, I am still in shock. I feel your presence in a sixth sense kind of way. I can feel your mom's pain because I know how much she loved you. This is my final goodbye to you... I know that you are finally at peace and that God has relieved you from all the pain you have endured. I do still love you. You not only were the bests of friends, but you were a sister to me! I will and always will miss you.
I haven't been to Griffith Park since maybe 1995 (way before their major renovation and restoration project). Rob hadn't been to the observatory at all since his move to California in 1998. We went to check it out with our friend, Brenda, on Friday... pretty cool!
Monday, March 19, 2012
As I write this, I just let out the biggest yawn I have had so far. I am so tired it is difficult for me to verbalize the simplest of words by pronouncing the wrong syllable in a word that is remotely not the same. It has been a busy week, and I cannot recall the last time Rob and I had just a day to relax. Many past events with family and friends over the past two weekends have been entertaining, but it is exhausting! I am hoping that this week will die down soon because I want to sleep! I cannot get a normal sleep cycle going at all!
Sunday, March 18, 2012
In light of everything that has happened, I realized that I need a bit of some stress relief. To seek that relief, I turned back to something that I have always enjoyed doing - PHOTOGRAPHY! Before modern technology even took over with the digital camera, there has not been a time where I was always caring a camera, dozens of film canisters, and my imagination. Digital cameras made my project even easier where I could just tuck it into whatever purse, backpack, or coat pocket that I had with me at the time. Instant memories were cherished (or deleted) forever. Looking at a former co-worker’s and her little daughters’ blog (they each have one), I discovered that my co-worker also had a photoblog document every single day. She had started her own Project 365 based on daily themes that she received from scrapbooking group. I was so amazed to see many of the different pictures she had taken, and her perspective on things. Heather's photo taking has inspired me to begin photoblogging for the next 365 days. I am exploring the different themes and ideas to see what I can share for the next 52 weeks. Check out my site everyday: 365 Days of Mynmay
Saturday, March 17, 2012
March 17, 2012 - today's festivities would have been our wedding day, not St. Patrick's Day. For the past two weeks, I have been under a great deal of stress, not because of what would have been. It was because if what MIGHT not happen. For personal reasons, the March wedding that I have been planning for the past eight months had become a not. However, a wedding will still happen in July. *fingers crossed*