It's been over a couple of years since my mom passed away. There isn't a day that doesn't go by where I don't come across something that will remind me of what she said or did. I still can't believe that she isn't here, and I truly miss her. OK, so my point for this blog was because, the the first couple of episodes, "Army Wives" has done a farewell tribute of some sort to Kim Delaney's character, Claudia Joy Holden. As I watched these two episodes, I closely related to Emmalin, the character's youngest and only surviving daughter. I felt her grief, her sorrows and tears, her need to drop everything to care for her father. I went through that. It brought me back to that day I walked through the front door, and received the news from my dad.... the day of my mom's memorial.... her cremation... and finally, bringing her to the Philippines for her final resting place. I was heartbroken that my mom had requested all of this. The thought of not having her close for me to visit her. However, I knew that she will always be with me in spirit. I was saddened over the thought of not having her at my college graduation, watch me get married, and to hold her grandchild -- everything that Emmalin wished that Claudia Joy would be sharing these memories with her.
I am now beginning to feel OK with my mom being gone in her physical state. Every once in awhile, I feel her spirit around me. Every so often, the grief that I have felt for almost two and a half years comes back, in particular, the holidays. There are times I would recall with my husband all the best memories I have of my mom. Those are sometimes the happiest, but yet the saddest times I will feel.
Ok, well, I thank you for letting me share this...
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